Spilling

The sunset two evenings ago. It was just after another much needed rain storm.

So, I've been fairly quiet here for a while now with just occasional pop-ins to post a pic, ask for prayers, and confess my recent dirty eating habits. Mostly my lack of posting has been due to some family stress, pregnancy related tiredness and nausea, and just not knowing what to say. 


Well, tonight I feel like talking/typing and Joe Purdy just came on my Pandora station, so while I listen to my mellow grooves, I'll spill some random stuff that's mulling about my brain. 


Some of you have commented that perhaps my vague prayer request last month has to do with my pregnancy announcement a few weeks ago. Actually, they aren't related at all. That prayer request was and still is in regards to one of my children. That is all I am ready to tell right now. It's a delicate situation and I'm not sure how much I want to share about private family matters, especially when it involves my children. Though I feel like it would be a relief to just spill all of my concerns and anxieties, I also feel very protective of my children's privacy. It's getting harder for me to balance my wanting to share about my life and my wanting to guard my family as my children get older. I should say though that we are still in need of prayers for that intention, so if you could, I would greatly appreciate any prayers you could offer us.


The pregnancy is going well, or I should say, as well as to be expected in the first trimester.  I am tired and nauseated most of the day, but these are normal and natural for me. I take it as a good sign. The only time I didn't have these symptoms is when I miscarried and I knew almost from the beginning of that pregnancy that something was off. According to how the doctors figure it (based on the first day of my last cycle) I am 6 weeks along now. I read today that the baby is about the size of a single lentil and has a heart beat! Even after all of my pregnancies it's hard to wrap my mind around the fact that something so tiny can be developing SO quickly! The heart is beating and it is the size of a LENTIL! Amazing. Simply amazing. I will be going in next week for my first doctor visit and ultra-sound. Because of my "high-risk" status and my dangerously difficult pregnancy last time, I am a bit nervous. If you could also keep this intention in your prayers, too, I would be very grateful.


I'm starting to really feel the pressure to finish up my learning plans for this coming school year. It should have been done by now, but I am the queen of indecision. I have endless ideas floating around in my mind. It just takes working it out and solidifying it on paper. I think I know what curriculum we will be using for most of our subjects. All that's left is to find a good high school catechism/religion course. Any suggestions? High school…just typing it seems surreal and a tiny bit scary. Didn't I just come out of my teens? How do I have a kid in high school already? (Obviously I know I'm in my mid thirties, but you know what I mean, right?)  This year I will have a kindergartner, a first grader, a second grader, two fifth graders, an eighth grader, and a ninth grader. Phew! 

So what have I been doing if not writing up learning plans? Doing what most nauseated tired procrastinators would do. I knit, watch videos and netflix instant watch, and sleep. I get up to make meals (ugh) and change diapers (double ugh) and that's about it. I think I've only showered once this week. Oh yeah, I'm a purdy sight to behold. Thank goodness for my 4 oldest kiddos. They are indispensable. Today I watched the first 4 episodes of the British tv series, Robin Hood, with my 11 year old boy. He likes most anything with men wielding swords. :) It's fairly entertaining and distracts me from my miserableness. Richard Armitage plays the bad guy in this one. He makes for a good bad guy. ;)  I'm working on yet another pair of socks. They're intended for a girl friend and I am using the last of my stashed Snape colorway in sport weight from Sunshine Yarns. I have been spending quite a lot of time looking over some baby pattern knitting books I had recently purchased. Such cute stuff! I'm definitely feeling inspired to make something tiny.


I suppose I should wrap up this rambling post. It's almost midnight here. Before I go, though, I'm going to throw one more thing out there. I've been thinking of getting my hair cut. Not just trimmed, but REALLY cut. My hair is so long now. I measured it tonight and from crown to the tip ends it measured almost 23 inches! I had thought about it a few months ago and decided then that I would wait until I lost more weight to really chop it off. My reasoning being that short hair doesn't look good on me unless I am fairly thin. Overweight with short hair is not a look I can pull off. So, I've left it long. But, now of course, with hormones raging I'm feeling the pressing desire to chop it. Ahhh! What to do? I know pregnancy is not the best time to be making drastic changes to ones hair, but I'm not feeling very reasonable right now. Maybe you could talk me off of this hairy (haha) cliff.